Kerri
06-11-1999, 02:07 PM
I used the machine three times last night, One with Ultra meditation two and twice with the expanding your psychic powers mind script. I did not go under as deeply as I went the other night on the Ultra meditation two, it felt like it was one level above, still very deep though. I had some mind chatter that prevented me from going deeper. I’ve been having less and less mind chatter and when it comes I don’t have to move my head as I stated before. It happens now like a reaction…I hear, I acknowledge, I look at the lights, no thought process involved. I’ve noticed that when I go under the deepest I have very little to no mind chatter. There are some days though, even when I’ve done what I think is extremely well with keeping my mind chatter to the absolute minimum, there are days where I just can’t stop it and the result is a deep meditation but not where I should be. I believe I only go under deep at these times because my mind is getting use to it and even with chatter it goes to a level that my mind is accustomed to but no further. <BR> Immediately after ultra meditation two I put on the expanding your psychic powers mind script (on program # 2). Now let me tell you a little something about this, Granted I have never went as deep with these as I do with the Ultra meditation CD’s, I still go under. It’s rare that I see things as I do with the U.M’s but I see lights, feel myself floating, turning and aware completely of my outer surroundings. When I go under the deepest with these I feel a total expansion of my conscious mind when I come out of it. It feels as deep as I went with Ultra Meditation one about the fourth time I used it, still with no pictures, visions or dream state type imagery. <BR> I said already that I used this one twice last night. The first time I used it I had some chatter but I felt myself going under quickly, It seemed to pretty much stay at the level that I usually go under with this particular mind script. When I came out of it I got up and went to the bathroom (this tends to happen every single time I use the SuperMind (MindQuest) it doesn’t matter which CD or tape I use). After, I sat down for a moment in my room feeling the intensity of the mind script running through me still. Of course I dwelled on it and woke up completely even though it was very late at night. I decided to go back to bed and tried to go to sleep with no luck. I laid there for a good 45 minutes and decided to use the expanding your psychic powers mind script again in hopes that it would make me drowsy enough to go to sleep. <BR> I put it on and immediately went under. The voice sounded like it was coming from the sky above me and the lights seemed to be off in the distance rather than right in front of my eyes and the sound right from the headphones. This usually happens with the U.M.’s (with out the voice of course). Completely aware of my surroundings in “surround sound” (this is typical as well) I began to hear a strange sound that somewhat frightened me, like tapping on the walls, roof and on the window. I tried not to pay any attention because I didn’t want to come out of it and I tried not to get frustrated with this strange sound. You can imagine how silly I felt when something inside me said that this sound was rain just intensely heard because of the mind script. After I realized this I began to relax more using the rain as an extension sound of the mind script. I tried to make myself believe that this was just a part of the tape, which worked and did something I didn’t realize it would do…I felt a pulsing on the middle top of my back almost like a heart beating but under the top layer of my skin. I let this feeling pass (always trying to be ready for anything). Then I felt the pulsing more intensely, I kept my focus on the lights and voice but then my body began to shake from the inside, slowly at first then almost violently and then it would pass. Over and over this happened, first the pulsing from my back than the shaking from the inside of me. A bright light flashed and it hit me that we were not just having rain but a thunderstorm, a very heavy thunderstorm. After this next realization I was calmer and not scared of the pulsing or the shaking. I thought it was kind of neat (for lack of better words) that I could feel the vibrations of the thunder so intensely through my body. With no more fear or curiosity over what was happening I fell deeper into the mind script, deeper than it’s been, but only for a few moments because with all the excitement over what was happening I let my time run out. I was about to go for it again but decided against it when I looked out the window and realized what a bad storm it was. I unplugged all of the wires from the equipment. (This equipment has become very important to me as well as very valuable, not because of the money but because of what it has done for me) And I was angry with myself that I let it run it’s coarse during such a bad storm. I went out into the living room and shut down the computer then sat back in the room paying full attention to the storm, not because I like storms but because for a moment in time I felt that I was actually connected with it. <BR> It was a really great feeling and I know most of you may have felt this before, but I'm fairly new to this (I've only been using the SuperMind,MindQuest right for almost four weeks but have used it for almost two months prior jumping to different CD's & tapes) I've very interested in hearing other peoples stories and experiences, I'd like to know what I may expect in the future ( although I am aware it is different for every one )