Kerri
06-09-1999, 02:22 PM
Last night I had by far the most in-depth experience I have ever had, I know I am just beginning and it will get farther in to my subconscious the more I use the machine. I felt myself being lowered deeper and deeper far passed where I thought was the deepest level before and I know this is just the beginning and that I will get deeper but last night was amazing and the deepest I’ve ever been under. <BR> I didn’t see much other than the lights but they were different, different shapes, colors and forms. I know that the light sequence never changes but I saw them completely differently. I felt myself moving under quickly, deeper and deeper. Every now and then I’d be watching the new sequence of lights and they would ark over me and looked like an orange tunnel sending me into the next level. I saw the normal white that looks like lasers but it was like they were scanning me, I’ve seen this one many times before, but this time it was different. Farther and farther I went. <BR> The only thing I saw…now pay attention…I heard the waves (meditation two) and saw myself on the beach at first, but the waves seemed off. The location of the waves was not right to where I was on the beach, so my vision changed. I was on a peer at the ocean, the very end of the peer. I have been on peers before in my life and it is peaceful. Then the waves seemed right. Heavily coming towards me but still passing by me breaking on the shore behind me. Peace filled my heart and mind in remembrance of being on peers at night in my past. All of a sudden I was flying over the waves, I was scared at first but the peace consumed me. Something happened that took my fear away and only absolute peace filled my soul. I twisted and turned flying above, accelerating down then going up. I know I had a smile on my face, utter happiness came upon me as I soared. Then my voice came and said “You’re paying too much attention to the ocean” Like a reaction more than a thought I began to see the lights again moving me into the next level, this time with no fear of the unknown, still filled with peace and happiness. I was unaware of my body, no jerks or twitches like I normally feel when I’m under and aware of my sleeping body. I did not feel cold or hot, just nothingness. I was sent farther down once again and I coughed and it shocked me because I was unaware that I needed to cough (you know when you feel the tickle in the back of your throat? I did not feel that) Only the sound and the slight jerk of my body but is wasn’t enough to snap me out of the trance like it normally would have and I immediately went right back to where I was. I typically would get frustrated at the feel of the bed moving when my fiancé turns or the kids are around and come near the bed, but when I felt movement I was comforted at the knowledge that he was “with” me in the trance and I felt safe. When this happened I did not pull out of the trance, just was aware at the moment that he was near me. <BR> I stopped hearing the waves like they were not in the sound track at all and heard other sounds that I know are not on the CD, I wish I could explain to you what they sounded like but I can’t. Still moving deeper down and seeing the lights taking different shapes I felt as though I stopped breathing completely but was not frightened. I heard the waves coming back and realized that my “30 minute session” was almost up (it felt like I was under at the very least two hours) I was slightly disappointed that it was coming to an end. The lights turned off, the sound track had run it’s course and it was over, but I could not pull out of it, It felt like I couldn’t breath and I panicked I began coughing and struggling to catch my breath like I had been under water for a long period of time holding my breath then coming up for air, or just completely out of my body and forcing myself back to life. <BR>Dane is that normal? Jake said I was accelerating too fast and that it shouldn't have happened like that on meditation two...if he's right, What happened?